lost

should i or should i not..this question kept on intrude my brain & kinda made me face the question..

had a bad conversation with her & afterwhich, feels greatly denied & would wana kinda deny her existance..
The following days, i did well in responding & kinda facing her but den again, it's kinda hurting to see her being happy even with other guy friends around.. true, just friends but den again.. don't know wassup.. feels kinda jealous? i can't stop tinking of her and wishing us to be back to the 1st few days of our friendship.. so nice.. ahhh helpppp can't stop tinking!!!!
i have no idea but den again, this sucks.. wish i can have a way to salvage this painful page of my life....

how i wish & hope things would turn out well amongst us.. seriously kinda lost towards such situations.. is that really love or issit just my sets of thinkings i don't know.. so should i contiune to deny her friendship or shd i just be cool over the past and like just be her NORMAL friend.. i stress normal as i will be normal friends with her no matter wad happens. ideas pls...