fuck me

Im 23 this year. for 23 years i've been fooling everyone and myself. tubi said i dont listen and always do the same things over and over again. brother.. i listen. dont know why.. maybe i do things without much thoughts thats why repeated my mistakes over and over again i guess. rek and yaw keep say Tink b4 u do anithing. i listen to this . but fuck it. i tink but not tink too inside it i do things i guess..thats why i guess u brothers ( sorry rek ) say that i dont tink. realli find it dumb to post this but i want to remember this for life. this blog will vanish someday but this thought i dowan it to vanish.after feeling headach and so.. i told these problems to bei yu saying i wana change myself. She ask me to live my life myself and have a vison. don't quite get it but i must change. cheers

A game called life

a game called life.. nid to find the part/parcel from it ..can i overcome it..? a difficult game but yup. i have to strive for the better, if can, best out of it.. Been into a big problem lately due to my sensative thinkings and emoness.. 1 sentance to say out how i feel. "Fuck u. Be strong. dun fucking be Emo mr ang. " Just like the game of life.. Strive for the better .. Let time heal every misunderstanding bettween me and qianyi.. and pls. mr Ang. dun fucking tink alot and get emo .
i feel dumb posting this but .. lac la.. maybe 1 day i kena a new accident or wad become forgot of the past. at least blog tells me hw i felt and sorts bah.. Cheers peeps..

Good bye Brother look

been long since i updated.. few weeks ago.. my pal "look" aka luke wanted to go to newzeland to study.. the day b4 he went overseas.. we went to his house to give him a farewell thingy .. barberque.. we chatted, watched soccer, and drank.. after that i went home.. next day SHOUD BE the day he go overseas.. but omg.. he got it wrong lOl!!! it was meant to be the next day instead.. =_=" so once again.. we went to his house.. we drank and sorts.. + watch soccer.. sad to say i was drunk.. heh.. didnt know wad happen after that .. the next day i went to the airport to sent him off together with some from our group + his friends.. good luck in ur studies and life over there look.. all da best.
after that.. (long story coz long time no update haha.. psps..) a few days or so later.. we went to watch supa man ! at cinie.. ALOT went.. yup.. but .. arg.. dun talk about it bah.. heh.. long and nice show bah.. den ytd.. went to glenda's hs aka castle to celebrate her bday.. it was HhhHUge!!! and alot of peeps were there.. chatted, ate,and lac there.. but i went off early coz nid to tink of some matters.. at home.. after telling my mum the things im tinking of.. she brought me beer.. and i drank alot bah.. affter that went to sleep after talking to qianyi on the phone.. right now.. i feel lost .. A game called life... can i overcome it..? i hope i can.
btw all the best ! cheers