life

life is hard. its a game. overcome it? lac. these were the words i used to say.. but now. after bad things happen.. i cant take it.. i know i need to lac. but my brain is overtakened by my heart. my brain is clouded with emotions. tons of emtions..save me. once in my mind. Friends. wad are they. Brotherhood wad is that. wrong. totally wrong. maybe becoz im a selfish person. i rely on friends 2 much. sadness find them . happiness find them 2. wadever things happen. to me. i feel that they wil always be there for me. totally wrong. Humans are all selfish. me 2. i dont care if they have problems or wad. i just do things my way. i am a selfless person yes. but in the end. selfishness are within me without any notices.. Right now. Friends are just people around u whom be happy, and together have fun? give $$ to pay the bills.
no more that kind of brotherhood feeling of me paying or u paying. and lac. no more. after my accident. i have changed. yes. but always thought i have change yes, so brothers are willing to support me. but wrong. fucking wrong. screw it. its life.