fuck me

Im 23 this year. for 23 years i've been fooling everyone and myself. tubi said i dont listen and always do the same things over and over again. brother.. i listen. dont know why.. maybe i do things without much thoughts thats why repeated my mistakes over and over again i guess. rek and yaw keep say Tink b4 u do anithing. i listen to this . but fuck it. i tink but not tink too inside it i do things i guess..thats why i guess u brothers ( sorry rek ) say that i dont tink. realli find it dumb to post this but i want to remember this for life. this blog will vanish someday but this thought i dowan it to vanish.after feeling headach and so.. i told these problems to bei yu saying i wana change myself. She ask me to live my life myself and have a vison. don't quite get it but i must change. cheers